it's almost my birthday. the big day is on friday, to be exact. and for the past handful of years, i've not loved celebrating. contrary to most everyone's commonly held belief about me, i don't like being the center of attention. and birthdays? well, usually that's prime time for yelling out, "hey, celebrate me!" that's a show i'm just not that into for it's perpetually a reminder of the very miserable birthday i trudged through right after my father passed away. you can rewind and read about that here...
august 7th is a weird day for me anyways... i get freaked out thinking about the other things that have happened on august 7th in my family... like it being the day my grandfather disappeared. that's another story for you to have a read on...
this year though, it's so very interesting and strange and exciting that the day, august 7th, has taken on a whole new meaning. i have someone to celebrate it with - and i mean literally celebrate with given our birthdays fall on the same day of the year. but we're not talking about just someone, or just anyone else having the same birthday... i mean, we're talking about the opportunity to spend the day and celebrate this usually odd, awkward, if not miserable day of the year with someone who makes me happier than anything else simply on a daily basis. someone who makes me feel like i'm complete. someone who makes me want to be a better person. someone who makes me feel honored, over and over again. i get to celebrate with him. and that's crazy to me because i already feel blessed every day specifically because of him... but on top of all of that, now i get this gift of being able to celebrate my birthday with completely new and different meaning through him. it no longer has to be a day or time period where i am constantly thinking about the past, and the loss of my father, and regrets i have surrounding that whole situation.
in some ways, i feel like this new way of celebrating my birthday - our birthdays - makes the past a bit more palatable. and for that, i'm so very, very thankful. it might just have to be one of the best gifts ever.
I am very happy to read this. It does take the right person to help close or put away those chapters in your life that were difficult for you. I had a chip on my shoulder and was so paranoid while it was me and C. There was a lot of hurt and bad memories. Meeting your brother and falling in love with him was like a tidal wave of cleansing that helped me close that chapter and start anew. It felt so fantastic to meet someone that cherished me and respected my opinion. It was wonderful to be with someone who didn't care about face. I'm a lucky gal.
Posted by: Sista Stef | Wednesday, 05 August 2009 at 09:12 PM
happy soon-to-be-bday babe, i can't wait to celebrate with you on friday! xo
it is going to be a special one...and you'll continue to have special ones as you open new chapters in your life.
Posted by: rasika | Wednesday, 05 August 2009 at 11:34 PM
sounds like kismet, meeting someone who can help you change the way you think about the day and build reasons to look forward to it. enjoy, f
Posted by: fran melmed | Friday, 07 August 2009 at 02:53 PM